Alderney, Guernsey | November 2020
I hope this this finds you safe and well. I’m back to our weekly newsletters after a very long break.
I think the global pandemic has affected us in so every many inexplicable ways. As we entered lockdown in April, I received many emails and messages from our community and I wanted to keep in touch much more regularly than the ‘three times a year’ newsletter. I loved the weekly diary between March and mid-July that most of you remember. Then, I just didn’t feel like doing it anymore. It’s so hard to figure out why, but recently I have been reading and listening to podcasts exploring ideas around vulnerability, courage and leadership. On the one hand, it might seem a little grandiose to be claiming difficulties with ‘leadership’ when Children for Health is such a small organisation – albeit with a huge and growing network. But as a founder, as well as the CEO of Children for Health, I am its leader!
By July, I felt exhausted by the hours and days and weeks of the seemingly endless chase for funding to replace the contracts and events we expected and lost due to Covid-19. So, I decided to start my annual August retreat early and now it’s the 2nd November and this is my first newsletter since July. It’s not that I am not working – it’s just that I didn’t feel like communicating when I was feeling as I did.
The leadership lessons I’m learning – and most especially from Brené Brown – is about staying IN and WITH uncertainty; using risk and emotional exposure to find creativity. It’s not about – trying to do all I can to find my balance and feel better and when I do, get back to leading – I see now that it’s about making vulnerability PART of leading. This takes courage, I know.
Today was a dreadful day, a close ally rejected a proposal for an idea we have been working on with them for many years – when the time could not be better to develop this idea. So, this newsletter is sent on a difficult day of disappointment but on a day when I have to live into my values of community (YOU), creativity (this) and courage (leading right now).
So – HELLO! And please let me know if this is resonating with you. Please get in touch and let’s talk about it.
Some highlights from the months I’ve been away from you (apart from recognising vulnerability and figuring out a way to be at peace with its constant presence anyway!) have included:
Thank you for reading!
P.S. See below a picture of me (two hats – far right) with my swimming group. I’m swimming each day at 07:30 whatever the weather and we all take it in turns to make soup for the group, which we have on the beach before returning home for a hot shower.